Just when I thought I’m almost at the top of the mountain, I make a false move: stepped on the wrong rock and now another downfall. Business is great, work is great, but family? Not so great. With our doomed economy, holding on to a job is probably the most important thing that matters to families right now. And right now, I feel like I need to take over the responsibility of making things work for my family. You can probably guess what I’m saying here by now. Well, you should because it’ll take me a day or two to write down details like nervous breakdown, operation, eye problems, relative problems, etc…so let’s not get into that.

Anyway, as the panganay (eldest) left in Toronto with no relatives or whatsoever for the past 5 years, I’ve learned to cope up with the things around me. I always tell myself that “yeah you have to do it or else it’s over. Everyone is looking at you so don’t fail!” Yes, I have to do it. Whatever it takes I must reach my goals. I must work hard. This is what got me started on my business in the first place. Without asking my parents a single dime, I worked my way to get to where I am now. This whole chunk of pressure on me pushed me to do better. But somehow it’s not enough. I feel like I could have done more. I’m facing a huge dilemma right now and I’m starting to realize all the time I wasted getting…well…wasted… could all have been put to something more productive. If only I had known. If only I had prepared myself for this then things would be a lot lighter today.

Whatever will happen tomorrow, the day after, the week after, will happen and there’s no doubt I must face these days with my head up high. I’m a fighter. Physically, emotionally and mentally. But no matter how much of a fighter I am, if  life goes behind my back, it’s over. The only thing that I must keep in mind is that I have to take the blow and stand on my own two feet. I must. Because that’s the only thing I can do.

Memories (Smiling Tears) by Tasha

A good song about living in fear, hell on earth, uncertainty, and a bunch of other depressing thoughts.

{Nightsense: A Nocturnal Life in Still Motion}

This is our company’s demo reel for 2007. We’ve been in business for more than 2 years only but we’re proud to say that we’ve done a lot of projects not only locally but also internationally. =)

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Hybmed Studios Demo Reel 2007