I had a classmate when I was in grade 5. I don’t remember much about her because we never really talked, but I just know I only call her by her last name.  I believe I was 12 at that time. I’m 24 now and in the middle of my groggy morning at work, I received a friend request from my facebook. At first I couldn’t seem to remember the name and even the photo, but I eventually realized who she was. We had a wall to wall conversation for a bit and finally decided to IM each other. We talked for hours and hours telling each other our life stories and each story we tell just worked out so well for the both of us. Talking to her reminded me of myself back in the days when I was struggling with my own life, alone - literally. It came to a point that even with all the laughter we had she ended up crying in front of the her webcam. I understand how that feels. That feeling of abundance. She told me that this morning she couldn’t even talk to anyone because there’s just nobody to talk to. Everyone’s doing their own business. It reminded me of that time when I was depressed and the people who I thought would be there weren’t.  Life in abroad is hard especially when you have no one, not even a single relative around. I know because I’ve been there and  now she’s going through the same thing. Struggling to survive so just she could follow her goals.

It was interesting to hear her train of thoughts and it was even more interesting to see that we always agree on everything. It almost felt like an endless conversation with no pauses or “thinking-of-what-to-reply” moments. I felt at ease not because of her struggles but because there’s someone out there who really knows how it was like to live such a life. And I felt like I could do something about it. I can help.

I’m excited to see her cope up. I’m interested to see how she will grow while pursuing her dreams. I have great hopes that she will surpass the obstacles in front of her and  i’m sure she will. Her strong personality really told me so. If I made it out without relying on anyone I’m sure she could do the same. I told her that I’ll do my best to help. I told her if you feel like crying then cry. Don’t bottle up your emotions. Tomorrow will be better, I swear!