I thought I was fine but I realized I’m not. It recently occurred to me how absent-minded I’ve become after almost using my mousse as my toothpaste this morning. It took me a moment to realize that I was doing something wrong. I was hoping it was just the early morning grogginess but unfortunately it wasn’t. While walking to work, I passed by a series of glass wall. I saw my reflection and I had to stop walking for a moment. I wasn’t even aware that I was literally hunched back and dragging my legs to walk. It was painstakingly annoying to see myself in such a state. I’m not sure what’s happening to me lately. I feel normal yet I know I’m not. I’m starting to notice that sometimes I don’t even know what I’m saying. I would say a word but it’s what I really wanted to say. When I read emails I would just scrub through them without even understanding what it was about. Last night, I was writing a proposal for my client and after finishing the writeup I ended up submitting the email to my dad. I only realized it few hours later.

Tonight, I need 16 hours to finish a website project that came in last night. It’s 4:40pm. Do the math. I’m going home to work… Again.